chez La Rustique Blue skies. Hot 25 degrees. Saturday 22nd August 2015
Sweet Mother
The usual loneliness and sadness of waking this morning alone. The happiness of Michael and A. highlights my solitude. BUT I GIVE THANKS TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER AND TODAY I WILL SUFFER THIS FOR THE LOVE OF JESUS...
Telephoned Jaqueline to tell her I would visit her tomorrow in Paris...really I am much less isolated that before. should be grateful that such a beautiful country welcomes me.
Sweet Child and Sweet Mother pray for me, for my family for Tina.
Your child
Lys.
x
Saturday, 22 August 2015
Monday, 17 August 2015
LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 17th August 2015
Chez Jardin Blue Skies 25 degrees Monday 17th August 2015
Sweet Mother
J'ai le caffard (I'm fed up) - such a long Sunday. The fatique has been awful for the last 2 weeks - insomnia. I read Thomas a Kempis and try to accept this suffering with grace, try to do it for Le Seigneur, tell Him I love him - but Oh Sweet Mother, if only He would send me a companion.
I confess today my intellectual pride, my spiritual pride and my creative pride - when I think what a wonderful painter I am I remind myself of Barbara Hepworth and F. Le Brun.
I do not know what studies to undertake - la Rentree is only 2 week away.
I am tired and lonely.
Your child
Lys.
x
Sweet Mother
J'ai le caffard (I'm fed up) - such a long Sunday. The fatique has been awful for the last 2 weeks - insomnia. I read Thomas a Kempis and try to accept this suffering with grace, try to do it for Le Seigneur, tell Him I love him - but Oh Sweet Mother, if only He would send me a companion.
I confess today my intellectual pride, my spiritual pride and my creative pride - when I think what a wonderful painter I am I remind myself of Barbara Hepworth and F. Le Brun.
I do not know what studies to undertake - la Rentree is only 2 week away.
I am tired and lonely.
Your child
Lys.
x
LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 16 August 2015
Chez Le Jardin Blue Skies 22 degrees Sunday l6th August 2015.
Sweet Mother
Max (cat) vomited bile this a.m. v. concerned, but he ate heartily afterwards. Can you ask a saint to keep their fingers crossed?
The beauty of the port of D. astonishes me every morning..This morning the fishing boat La Patricia was in her usual spot, a fine reflection, but no reflections from The White House at the edge of the Port.
My dislike of the new woman in the Bible group - quel horreur - of course these are all the characteristics in me that I reject. She is dominating, ignorant, bougeoise, self-righteous...I CAN'T STAND HER.
Of course, my Sweet Mother, you must help me to deal with this. Lots of prayer required.
Your child
Lys.
Sweet Mother
Max (cat) vomited bile this a.m. v. concerned, but he ate heartily afterwards. Can you ask a saint to keep their fingers crossed?
The beauty of the port of D. astonishes me every morning..This morning the fishing boat La Patricia was in her usual spot, a fine reflection, but no reflections from The White House at the edge of the Port.
My dislike of the new woman in the Bible group - quel horreur - of course these are all the characteristics in me that I reject. She is dominating, ignorant, bougeoise, self-righteous...I CAN'T STAND HER.
Of course, my Sweet Mother, you must help me to deal with this. Lots of prayer required.
Your child
Lys.
Saturday, 8 August 2015
LETTERS TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX by Foutoux draft. 8 August 2015
Chez C. Robinson Hot 26 degrees. Saturday 8th August 2015. 11.30 a.m.
Sweet Mother
Found a large wrinkle running across my right cheek this a.m. 60 is an age when you get a surprise every morning. Last night Bible Class. Invited three times. I am always amazed when I am invited anywhere.
Lovely letter from D. Le Saint Esprit is working hard and I pray with all my heart that God touches his heart.
I say the "Our Father" now with love and joy knowing that the Father hears me and lets me know I am loved.
Evening yesterday. Watering roses at the Monastery. I pay more attention the the feeble bushes, it is is like this that Grace works. Why would this sympathy in my heart not be duplicated a million times by Le Seigneur? God pours his Graces on me, a small, miserable rose.
Summer is stunning. For the first time, after 30 years of depression, I understand the enthusiasm for these long days.
I send love and thanks to the Sweet Child.
Your child
Lys.
Friday, 7 August 2015
LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 7 August 2015 by Foutoux (draft)
Chez Jardin Colombier Overcaste Some blue skie Friday 7th August 2015.
Sweet Mother
The mornings are wonder and the nights are lonely and long. ......
Autumn eats Summer day by day leaving long shadows everywhere....my continued trust in
Le Seigneur - this has not changed and St. Augustus looks after me. "Confessions" by my bedside.
Today I have l.60 euros to spend - on this coffee - provisions are all in. I will paint and write this pm
Please thank the Sweet Child for the courteous letter I received from my brother explaining the
inheritence....after six months, I have received the peace of forgiveness for being turned out of my mother's house just days after her death. How can this be that after such distress I find joy in the smallness tasks.
Your child
Lys.
Thursday, 6 August 2015
LETTERS TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 2. draft 26 August 2015
Chez Happy Restaurant Overcast 20 degrees Thursday 6 August 2015
Sweet Mother
Fanny arrived early - 9.05 a.m. This threw me. I am as attached to my good habits as much as my bad. Fanny gives me a blue medal of my Blessed Mother.
We chose the paintings. I took photos and had them developed. Now I know that Le Seigneur will make my dream happen, I am without fear. If La Galerie, Paris does not take my paintings I will reapply later.
I will persist with the Grace of God.
Now I am sure He has known me from my moment of conception and has guided me and wants me to succeed. But the success is for Him, for His glory.
Walked through D. market 11.00 a.m. this fills me with delight - the flowers, bought an ivy for 1 euro.
I thank my heavenly Father and love Him.
Your child
Lys.
Sweet Mother
Fanny arrived early - 9.05 a.m. This threw me. I am as attached to my good habits as much as my bad. Fanny gives me a blue medal of my Blessed Mother.
We chose the paintings. I took photos and had them developed. Now I know that Le Seigneur will make my dream happen, I am without fear. If La Galerie, Paris does not take my paintings I will reapply later.
I will persist with the Grace of God.
Now I am sure He has known me from my moment of conception and has guided me and wants me to succeed. But the success is for Him, for His glory.
Walked through D. market 11.00 a.m. this fills me with delight - the flowers, bought an ivy for 1 euro.
I thank my heavenly Father and love Him.
Your child
Lys.
Wednesday, 5 August 2015
LETTERS TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX by Foutoux drafts.
5th August 2015
Sweet Mother,
Quel bel temps! Magnifique. Summer has returned as has a summer mood. Happiness can it really be mine? So fleeting because the terrible pain returns every day...but have bought this week's shopping for 19 euros. My dream showed the Sweet Child stopping me from a horrible crime..you see He is with me, knows my humanity but loves me all the same.
Sweet Mother, today God has given me joy, let me be everything he wants me to be.
Your child
Lys.
Wednesday, 21 January 2015
letter to the Child Jesus. Dieppe Overcaste Wednesday 21 January 2015
Sweet Child
Hold me tight Sweet Child, hold me tight, I feel so alone in this world, so lost, so frightened.
I give you eternal thanks for my faith which has to be unshakable. Without this I could not live, would not want to live. Protect me, hold me, love me. I tell you too that I love You from the bottom of my heart...Let me be of service even if it is only in my role as a "malade", let me have kind thoughts, let me be a little more tolerant than yesterday, a little more open, more loving. Take away my self-righteousness, my fits of anger, my critical thoughts of others.
Your loving child
Lys
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