My Sweet Child
I am writing to thank You for a good night's sleep, for the breakfast of milk and tea and for the cuddles with Molly and Loulou.
As You know my heart is very heavy since my split with Michael and I shall miss his lovely voice, his knowledge of me as an abused child.
I prayed for 40 minutes last night and this seems to give me a good night's sleep...but my depression after 3 and a half weeks is still present, still not allowing me to function property.
I do not miss my Earthly Mother at all - and feel that my capacity to love is even smaller than I originally thought. In fact indifference has replaced the consuming anger and regret at the time I wasted trying to forge a relationship with a family who are unsupportive and critical.
So this is today's confession, Sweet Child - that You love me astonishes me - that my life is so difficult - I could have done nothing without Your support..
Your loving Mother and Child
Lys
