LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX. Foutoux draft 22 August 2015

chez La Rustique        Blue skies. Hot 25 degrees. Saturday 22nd August 2015

Sweet Mother

The usual loneliness and sadness of waking this morning alone.  The happiness of Michael and A. highlights my solitude.  BUT I GIVE THANKS TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER AND TODAY I WILL SUFFER THIS FOR THE LOVE OF JESUS...

Telephoned Jaqueline to tell her I would visit her tomorrow in Paris...really I am much less isolated that before.   should be grateful that such a beautiful country welcomes me.

Sweet Child and Sweet Mother pray for me, for my family for Tina.

Your child

Lys.
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LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 17th August 2015

Chez Jardin                   Blue Skies 25 degrees              Monday 17th August 2015



Sweet Mother

J'ai le caffard (I'm fed up) - such a long Sunday.  The fatique has been awful for the last 2 weeks - insomnia.  I read Thomas a Kempis and try to accept this suffering with grace, try to do it for Le Seigneur, tell Him I love him - but Oh Sweet Mother, if only He would send me a companion.

I confess today my intellectual pride, my spiritual pride and my creative pride - when I think what a wonderful painter I am I remind myself of Barbara Hepworth and F. Le Brun.

I do not know what studies to undertake - la Rentree is only 2 week away.

I am tired and lonely.

Your child

Lys.
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LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 16 August 2015

Chez Le Jardin         Blue Skies 22 degrees     Sunday l6th August 2015.



Sweet Mother

Max (cat) vomited bile this a.m.  v. concerned, but he ate heartily afterwards.  Can you ask a saint to keep their fingers crossed?

The beauty of the port of D. astonishes me every morning..This morning the fishing boat La Patricia was in her usual spot, a fine reflection, but no reflections from The White House at the edge of the Port.

My dislike of the new woman in the Bible group - quel horreur - of course these are all the characteristics in me that I reject.  She is dominating, ignorant, bougeoise, self-righteous...I CAN'T STAND HER.

Of course, my Sweet Mother, you must help me to deal with this.  Lots of prayer required.



Your child

Lys.

LETTERS TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX by Foutoux draft. 8 August 2015

Chez C. Robinson            Hot 26 degrees.        Saturday 8th August 2015. 11.30 a.m.


Sweet Mother

Found a large wrinkle running across my right cheek this a.m.  60 is an age when you get a surprise every morning.  Last night Bible Class.  Invited three times.  I am always amazed when I am invited anywhere.

Lovely letter from D.  Le Saint Esprit is working hard and I pray with all my heart that God touches his heart.

I say the "Our Father" now with love and joy knowing that the Father hears me and lets me know I am loved.

Evening yesterday.  Watering roses at the Monastery.  I pay more attention the the feeble bushes, it is is like this that Grace works.  Why would this sympathy in my heart not be duplicated a million times by Le Seigneur?  God pours his Graces on me, a small, miserable rose.

Summer is stunning.  For the first time, after 30 years of depression, I understand the enthusiasm for these long days.

I send love and thanks to the Sweet Child.

Your child


Lys.

LETTER TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 7 August 2015 by Foutoux (draft)

Chez Jardin Colombier                        Overcaste Some blue skie  Friday 7th August 2015.


Sweet Mother

The mornings are wonder and the nights are lonely and long.   ......

Autumn eats Summer day by day leaving long shadows everywhere....my continued trust in
Le Seigneur - this has not changed and St. Augustus looks after me.  "Confessions" by my bedside.

Today I have l.60 euros to spend - on this coffee - provisions are all in.  I will paint and write this pm

Please thank the Sweet Child for the courteous letter I received from my brother explaining the
inheritence....after six months, I have received the peace of forgiveness for being turned out of my mother's house just days after her death.   How can this be that after such distress I find joy in the smallness tasks.

Your child


Lys.

LETTERS TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX 2. draft 26 August 2015

Chez Happy Restaurant               Overcast 20 degrees  Thursday 6 August 2015


Sweet Mother

Fanny arrived early - 9.05 a.m.  This threw me.  I am as attached to my good habits as much as my bad.  Fanny gives me a blue medal of my Blessed Mother.

We chose the paintings.  I took photos and had them developed.  Now I know that Le Seigneur will make my dream happen, I am without fear.  If La Galerie, Paris does not take my paintings I will reapply later.
I will persist with the Grace of God.

Now I am sure He has known me from my moment of conception and has guided me and wants me to succeed.  But the success is for Him, for His glory.

Walked through D.  market 11.00 a.m.  this fills me with delight - the flowers, bought an ivy for 1 euro.

I thank my heavenly Father and love Him.

Your child

Lys.

LETTERS TO ST. THERESE OF LISEUX by Foutoux drafts.

5th August 2015

Sweet Mother,

Quel bel temps!  Magnifique.  Summer has returned as has a summer mood.  Happiness can it really be mine?  So fleeting because the terrible pain returns every day...but have bought this week's shopping for 19 euros.   My dream showed the Sweet Child stopping me from a horrible crime..you see He is with me, knows my humanity but loves me all the same.

Sweet Mother, today God has given me joy, let me be everything he wants me to be.

Your child


Lys.